Changing my perspective: 101 in 1001 days

•May 12, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Changing your outlook is both the hardest and the easiest job you will ever undertake. It’s easy to see things in a different light – maintaining that changed perspective is much harder. I’ve been inspired to appreciate all of the beauty in the little things lately. I’ve learned to be thankful for the little things, because those are the things that make all the difference. It’s hard having the bf away and out of contact, but writing to him every day (sometimes multiple times a day) has made me slow down and think about things more. It’s made me reflect on things – which allows me to see the kind of person I am and the kinds of things I want to do in my life. It’s also shown me how difficult it is to slow down and maintain that same clarity when you get caught up in life. We run through our days, tackling to-do lists and trying to fit everything in, and we’re missing SO many things. Taking the extra time to look around and appreciate the beautiful things that we have in our lives is enlightening, but hard to incorporate and make into habit.

There are so many things I want to see and do in my life. I’m tired of saying “someday” – I have realized that there are few opportunities I will have in my life (from a time perspective) to travel and see the world. Being a student, I have a little bit of time left because I enter corporate America and start working all year long for my two weeks of vacation.  So, I’ve been working on my 101 tasks in 1001 days list.  The idea of the project is to take your “things I want to do” or Bucket list… and actually do it. By giving yourself a time span to do it, you’re giving yourself time to plan and execute all the things on your list. I have 31 things on my list currently, and am really trying to put time and thought into the other 70 things I decide to add to my list. Some of the highlights from my list so far include:

2. See a play on Broadway; 6. Build a snowman; 12. Go parasailing; 22. Get a professional massage; 27. Backpack in Europe

There are of course tons of things I want to add to this, but I don’t want to overdo myself. If I keep my list practical and achievable (even with a doozy like 27) then I can ACTUALLY do this. And 1001 days later, I can make a new list and keep going. Life is too short to go through it saying “maybe next year”. So instead, I’m just going to do it.

What would be on your list?

 (http://dayzeroproject.com/ if you want more info or inspiration!)

Bandaids never fit quite right on your fingers…

•May 5, 2010 • Leave a Comment

Only I could manage to cut my finger on a plastic container of sour cream. Seriously?

Also, today was super productive and I crossed a lot of things off my to-do list. Yay for productivity! (now to make sure I make it to the gym tomorrow since I totally skipped the past two days… oops!)

A giant thanks to Oven Love for her recipe for Avocado Tomatillo Dip. I wrote down this recipe FOREVER ago and it’s totally one of my favorites ever. (And it’s always  a HUGE hit at any party I bring it to). It was the perfect end to a fab evening of margaritas and tacos with some of my favorites 🙂

Frozen, with salt.

•May 5, 2010 • 1 Comment

4 Words: Cinco de Mayo Fiesta. Tomorrow with some awesome friends from work 🙂

I’ve never been so doggone excited for tacos and margaritas EVER.

Holding up

•May 3, 2010 • Leave a Comment

I got the best surprise in the world yesterday. I was sleeping and woke up to my phone ringing. I didn’t recognize the number, and wasn’t going to answer. And then I remembered something the bf had mentioned really briefly before he left about getting into a habit of answering numbers I don’t know (because he’s seen me never EVER pick up if I don’t recognize the number, or at least the area code). As this realization sunk in (in the 15 seconds I was stumbling to answer my phone) my heart started racing and I got SO excited. I hurriedly answered my phone, and then waited the pause (OH THE PAUSE!) which felt like forever, and held my breath, hoping to hear his voice on the other end. And I did! He said he only had about 3 minutes for a phone call, but that didn’t matter to me. 3 minutes is more than nothing, and it felt so good to hear his voice and tell him I love him and I miss him. He just got his address, so he’s sending me a letter with it (so I have someplace to send my envelope of daily letters that’s getting rather full). The 3 minutes of course flew by, but I was so excited to hear his voice.

I am incredibly thankful for my friends. They have been wonderful – checking up and seeing how I’m doing, keeping me busy so I don’t have time to be sad. Random texts asking how I’m doing, phone calls, and mini road trips to see my friend’s new house.  I met up with a girl who I work with yesterday to see The Back-Up Plan. As you’ll come to learn, I usually HATE chick flicks. They’re just not my kind of movie. But lately they have been, because it helps me deal with him being away a little bit better. The movie was cute and actually made me laugh at some parts. A few scenes were beyond awkward (If you’ve seen it, you know!), and the storyline was of course over-the-top, but it was still wonderful to escape for a few hours. Afterwards, I went by her new house. She got married last summer and was so excited to show me her new place with her husband. It was adorable, and makes me excited to be a homeowner someday instead of just cramped up in my little apartment.

Speaking of little apartments, I’m trying so hard to go through and sort things out and get things packed up. I decided I would start early and pack up a little at a time so that 1) The task wouldn’t feel quite so daunting and 2) so that I could really go through and organize things. Such as putting all my long-term storage things in more appropriate (ie. Rubbermaid tubs) containers and my short-term storage into my cardboard boxes. It’s a task, but it’s keeping me busy 🙂

A short introduction…

•May 2, 2010 • Leave a Comment

I’ve tried time and time again to find a way to keep track of my thoughts and the daily on-goings of my life. 

I have had heartache and letdowns. I have had my breath taken away and the rug pulled from beneath my feet. I am blunt and speak my mind, but I’m not rude about it. I don’t see the point in skirting around the subject when talking about things. I live on iced coffee, I would live on sushi if my budget permitted, and I’m halfway between organized and a hot mess. I’m 22 and just finished my first year of grad school. I love to paint, to sew, to do crosswords, and to laugh with my friends. I am optimistic at times and cynical at others. And I’m terrible at these little “book back-cover summaries” of myself.

I have found the love of my life, and suddenly music is louder, colors are brighter, and my whole world finally feels like I’ve found my other half. He joined the Army and left the weekend before all of my exams started. As if exam week isn’t exhausting enough, I have been an emotional train wreck for the past 2 weeks. Right now he’s in basic, but he has advanced training after that all the way across the country that will last until late this year. It has been the most emotionally exhausting experience I have ever been through. We already were doing long distance (a 6 hour drive) before he left, but at least I got to see him. At least I got to talk or Skype with him every night. And now I haven’t heard from him in days and probably won’t be able to hear from him for a few weeks still. I’ve been writing letters, but I don’t have an address to send them to yet. It’s so hard, not knowing the next time I’ll be able to see him. Even once he’s done with training, our visits will be far and few between. I’m obligated to this town for at least 3 more years while I finish up my program, and there aren’t any bases close by for him to be stationed. I know we’ll make it, but this is new territory and I’m having a really hard time trying to find my footing.

School and work usually keep me incredibly busy, and I hate that I am running through this world without the time to appreciate the little things. It’s summer now, and I finally have the time to do the things that I want to do. (It also means I miss the bf even more, because now I would actually have all the time in the world to spend with him.) After finishing my last exam, I went out with a few friends to celebrate with mimosas at this local organic restaurant. After a few mimosas (and feeling no guilt despite it only being 10:30 in the morning) I headed straight to the local library and (finally) got myself a library card there. I perused the shelves, looking through books and CDs and classic movies. I had no time schedule and no agenda and it was marvelous. I got a few movies and some books I have been wanting to read for a while (some Palahnuik, and “Prep”, which was recommended to me by my sister). On my way home, I put the windows down, feeling the wind in my hair, and turned on my Jamie Cullum CD. And I just belted out the music. It was the best feeling in the world, especially considering that I have felt like my home for the past few months has been a tiny study room in the library. My exam week was brutal, and I was so exhausted. I averaged at most 3 hours a night for the week and a half straight of exams! but I was far too excited to go home and sleep.

Luckily I’m working all summer, but I still am left with a lot of free time that I’m not used to having. Hopefully summer adventures will ensue and I’ll have lots to share 🙂